Today I seem to be blogging without any direction. This post has no particular theme, but I want/need to blog, so I apologise in advance fo...
Today I seem to be blogging without any direction.
This post has no particular theme, but I want/need to blog, so I apologise in advance for the complete drivel that is probably about to spew onto the page.
I feel very confused emotionally at the moment.
One minute I want to cry, then I feel angry, and then someone or something will make me laugh, I forget the bad things for a few minutes, and the world is good again.
I am on an emotional roller coaster and I am exhausted.
But I guess that is to be expected after having such a shock, isn't it?
I want to be able to blog about sunshine, happiness and rainbows, but my mind just isn't in that place.
My mind is in the "woe is me", feeling miserable, rain clouds and thunder storms kind of place, and it sucks!
I want to be the happy wife and mother that my family deserve, but I can't help thinking "why do rubbish things keep coming our way?"
If it's not financial worries, it's a 4 year old who doesn't want to sleep and does nothing but cry and demand every second of my attention. It it's not my 4 year old, it's my 9 year old being a pre-teen and stropping around the house, adding to the stress. If it's not the 9 year old, it's the stress and worry of what the future holds for 7 year old Boo, and the implications it will have on the rest of the family.
Then, of course, I have to try to maintain some sort of normality, and keep the house clean, and tidy, and not looking like it has been inhabited by zoo animals.
Will it ever end?
So, I guess my post ended up with a theme after all.
It turned into an unintentional rant, and "woe is me".
For this, I can only apologise (again).
In fact, it seems that the majority of my posts seem to be rather "sad" recently.
So, if you are hiding the sunshine, happiness and rainbows ..... please forward them to my address!
Thank you (and sorry).