Yikes!!

I have just made the HUGE mistake of weighing myself and i have put on all of the weight that I lost after having Little Man.
How depressing. :0(
I've always had issues with my weight and was determined to lose it all after the birth of Little Man. I joined a slimming club, was exercising more, and it was all going really well.
Then I found out I was pregnant again, and now here I am, back at square one.

Daddy D and I are going to a charity event on Saturday night, at a rather posh hotel, and although i am looking forward to the actual event, I am dreading what I will look like.
I just know that by the time I have actually found something to wear and have got myself ready I will be flustered and ready to smash the mirror!
To make things worse, some of Daddy D's work colleagues will be there.
It would be a lot easier if it was a room of strangers.

My whole evening will be spent feeling extremely self conscious and worrying about people's opinions of me.

Yes, I know it's not even 3 weeks since I had Minnie, and yes I can hear you all screaming at your computers and wanting to give me a good slap, but I can't help it. (If I hade the guts to tell you how much I weigh then perhaps you would understand?)

After having 5 children I have been left with the gift of stretch marks, flab, the oh so attractive 'baby apron' and zero body confidence.

Don't worry, I'm not being completely depressive about it all.
Once again I am determined to lose the excess weight. After I have had my 6 week check I plan on joining my local aqua aerobics class and, as I don't have time to go to the gym or exercise classes, I am going to start Zumba work outs on my games console at home.

First step to losing some weight will be a healthier diet, as I have not exactly been careful about what I have been eating while pregnant and since Minnie's arrival.

I just wish I could have more body confidence instead of hating my body as much as I do. Fingers crossed that I can work on that while trying to lose my weight.

I'll keep you posted ;0)